I’ve made my New Year’s Resolution, which is to try even harder to stay positive this year, as I enter a new round of chemo in a few weeks. I don’t mean positive as in “oh, I’ll be cured, and everything will be great, and I’ll win the Nebula Award.” I am too much a realist for that kind of unrealistic optimism. That would only crush me at some point.
No, I’ve decided to really savor the good days and good moments that come to me during the year. I’m grateful that the doctor has a new chemo drug to try, that has had some success. (You can bet she’s being very cautious with my dosage, and will check my blood a lot, after what happened with that other chemo drug — my idiosyncratic reaction to it that nearly wiped me out.)
I’m going to be grateful for my husband, and my family, and my friends. I’m very very lucky to have them. I come from a close-knit family, and it’s wonderful to have that support and love.
I’m also grateful for my pals on Facebook. You all cheer me on and entertain me. 🙂
With all those things going for me, I am going to work harder at being positive and grateful for the blessings I have. The government can fall off a Fiscal Cliff, but I’m standing tall, and resolved to see the half-full glass of water instead of the half-empty one.
Here’s to a better 2013, despite the number, than 2012! Happy New Year, everyone!
I hope you not only find a way to be more positive, but that the ‘positive’ happens to you. I’ve had to watch a co-worker go through chemo and from what I have seen, there are times (she said) it feels like it would be easier just to let the cancer win. Only last year did she get through it and though she hasn’t been able to taste anything for over a year, she is grateful to see her son on the football team and have more beautiful moments with her husband.
I pray that your road isn’t so long to a healthy recovery. I hope thinking positively comes as easy as possible and that you find more good moments that are mixed in with the difficult ones.
Thanks, Jill! I appreciate your comment, and will keep it in mind. I know only too well what your friend was going through. I hope that at some point I’ll be able to have the same result.